Friday, November 02, 2007
The Trouble with Homelessness (Logistics)
Sometimes when you are free from a home, you are not able to do what you please, freely...
Today is November 2nd, 2007, and I was not scheduled to work at my morning job, but Neil was called into work this morning. I do however, have to work tonight at the newspaper from 5:00 - 7:00ish. Therefore, this morning we decided to take one car (the van) and drive together down to Lihu'e where Neil works at the surfboard shop and where I work at the newspaper. Since I had all the time in the world today (so I thought), I did not shower, thinking I would have plenty of time to do that before 5:00 p.m. Not a smart move, because as the morning temperature increased, my patience decreased, and I took my crankiness out on the husband, unfairly.
He dropped me off at the Lihu'e library, where I am now typing this, and helped me gather my things as I grumbled, and bitched, and moaned about how stinky I felt, and then he left. It was at this point that I discovered I had missed a phone call from one of the employees at my mail center job; she wanted to know if I could work a few hours for her. I am not one to turn down money but there I was, putridly greasy, with a bikini on instead of proper undergarments, without a car, and realizing that I didn't have the bus schedule or a way back up to the North Shore, approximately 45 minutes away.
I called my co-worker and explained that I was in Lihu'e to which she said so am I! It turned out she was around the corner from the library so she drove up to see if we could figure out what to do. Now, I do have some pride so how was I going to explain that I hadn't showered, my clothes for my next job were located in my home-on-wheels not nearby, and I didn't have a way to get to the North Shore? I explained that we crashed at a friend's house in Kapahi last night (lie) and my car was way up on the North Shore and my husband had the other car because we wanted to conserve gas, also that I needed to figure out where to shower (a slip on my part), and I needed to be able to get ready for my other job; she offered to let me borrow her car. I should have said yes, but I couldn't get a hold of Neil to find out where my mobile closet might be hanging out at 3:30 p.m.
Even though it was not my day to work, and if she had called me last night I would have agreed instantly, I still felt guilty when I said no. And I still feel guilty. I think if I would have at least showered this morning instead of saving it for mid-afternoon, I might have said yes. But in the heat of the moment, my brain was more worried about how I looked than anything else. I do feel a lot better now that I washed my face in the library bathroom. Too bad I hadn't done that before she called.
But at least now I have the library, and the internet, and a husband who I've scared off.
